Juvenile Probation >Detention >Beat Within The Beat Within - I Can and Will Through my eyes you would see a girl who suffers with lots of problems that are hard to deal with. Like anger. Whenever I get mad it’s like my whole world goes dark and I just want to die because I let everything build up and I let it out by cutting, hurting myself—I know it’s not the way, but that’s all I feel I could do to make me feel better.

When I let everything build up I think about death and that life isn’t worth living and I know that’s wrong, too. I don’t want to feel this way, but life to me just doesn’t seem like the happiest thing in the world.

Through my eyes you would see lots of tears, pain, and hurt in my life. My parents just got a divorce and the state is putting me from group home to group home ‘til I mess up and end up locked up again. I keep messing up and getting into trouble ‘cause it’s like I have nothing better to do.

I know there’s a way out of this pain and suffering, I just have to find it. I know I can do it. I can and I will.

-- Nina